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|Friday, January 15th, 2010|
I was bored-- decided to take this test again that I took four years ago to see how my results have changed since then. Here it is:
|Tuesday, October 28th, 2008|
|I have not made an update in far too long! (So here goes)
Today is a good day. Halloween will be in three days-- this year I'm gonna be wearing two costumes-- during the day, I will be Light Yagami, and later on the Joker for work at the movie theater.
I am currently sitting next to Ashley Wygant in the computer lab at Penn State. Why is it that I feel compelled to mention this? Well, simply because the other night she asked me if I had ever mentioned her in any of my lj entries. And now I am doing just that! Go me.
That is about all I have to say for right now, to my devoted lj fans. Look forward to my next sporadic update, surely coming sometime within the next few months.
I love Kayla. Current Mood: crazy
|Tuesday, September 2nd, 2008|
|Buhl Day '08
Hm. It's always interesting reading my lj entries of the past, and seeing how much things change over the years.
I find myself to be almost... overly energetic and enthusiastic in some of my entries. Most of them even, hahaha. It's interesting to watch myself grow up throughout the years, to see how my thoughts and writing change through my entries.
So Buhl Day this year was pretty good times. Me and comrade Justin hung out for my any hours, and of course my legs in sore from seven hours or so of walking around. Hung out at Craig's playing Smash afterwards-- and then a Taco Bell run with James and THAD, which was awesome because of how much fun Captain James always manages to be.
Gotta be up in five and a half hours, ugh. Gonna have a busy day tomorrow, what with class, and then-- gonna go to Mercer to take the permit test. Finally after six years of always saying I was gonna do it, I'll bite the bullet and take the test. Haha. Hopefully I pass.
Hmm. Oh yeah! I got hired at the movie theater, looking forward to working there, I am thinking I will like it more than K-Mart, haha. AND first home football game of the season is on Thursday. As always, I am looking forward to it.
I love Kayla.
|Sunday, June 15th, 2008|
I saw TARA today. That is all.
I love Kayla.
|Friday, June 15th, 2007|
Yup, that's right. Nancy Drew came out today. 'Nuff said.
I love Kayla.
|Monday, June 4th, 2007|
|A Quick Commentary
Well, it was some decent laughs looking back on my old journal entries over the past two and a half years. Sort of a lot has happened during that time. I was.... a bit different back then. I took note that I tend to post the most when anything girl related is going on in my life, wheeee! Hmm... I must go though, dishes to be done and a lot to do later on in the day as well. It'll be a good day, to be sure.
Soon enough I'll give another update about my happiness situation, with the usual dose of ambiguity to it, hehehehehe.
I love Kayla.
|Friday, June 1st, 2007|
|Two Days, Two Entries
A bit unusual for me, posting two days in a row and all of that, hahaha. I was thinking more about life again, so this is a sort of follow-up to last night's entry!
I once had a dream-- it was everything to me. That dream I carried with me before years, and after a fashion, it was one day achieved. I had never in my wildest dreams actually expected it to ever happen, and yet it did (in a sense, as I already said). In a way, that sort of... left me devoid of hopes and dreams. It wasn't exactly what I thought it would be, I suppose. And it had blocked out really any other chance for me to have hopes/dreams about other things, I guess?
Nearly two years later, I'm realizing that now I actually have a new lofty aspiration! In regards to my first dream, this one is much, much harder, though relatively speaking, in my younger days I thought the aforementioned dream would be of comparable difficulty to the current one-- with the notable difference being that that one I never thought would really happen after a while. This one I am convinced that while it may be highly improbable that if I REALLY apply myself, I might have a small shot.
I've always liked doing things the hard way. Things that come easily to me tend to bore me. So there's a certain fascination to me about something that seems almost insane to ponder trying to achieve, and thus it compells me all the more! It brings a certain sunniness to my day, thinking now that, "Hey, I've got a big goal out there."
Well, I suppose I am done with this novel... for now. Sorry for all the ambiguousness, devoted readers! (I'd rather not tell you all exactly what I am up to, and have you be like, "Ian, that'll never happen!") Hahahahahaha.
I love Kayla. Current Mood: excited
|Thursday, May 31st, 2007|
|Crazy, Crazy, Me
I actually have a rather large aspiration in life now, that has just come to me within the last few days. I've never been much for idle dreams of the future as I do not think all that much can come out of such things... but, hmmm.
How to describe it? I firmly believe that nothing is really impossible. (Well like, you can't fly, no matter how hard you try. And I am quite sure that you can't transform into a wolf either, or live forever.) But in the parameters of life, all things are doable, no matter how improbable they may be. People I think are too doubting of things-- if there is something that would be ridiculously unlikely, they would just assume it's impossible, without putting forth a most likely pointless effort anyway.
Dreaming big doesn't pay off all that often, I should think. But it doesn't hurt to do so if you're realistic about it! I've been in need of some sort of goal (besides graduating college with excellent grades) ever since getting out of high school. Suddenly I have this ridiculously lofty idea in my head, and it's somehow really uplifting to me to think that there is something I wish to accomplish, despite the seeming impossibility that most people would think it is. Now really the question is: how do I get to where I want to be with this?
I love Kayla. Current Mood: hopeful
|Wednesday, May 16th, 2007|
|3 Years Have Passed Since That (Not So) Horrendous Incident...
Heh. First update in quite some time. It's now three hours since May 15th actually ended, which the 15th was three years to the day I met Ellen Morris. Ironically it rained today, just as it did that day three years ago. It is hard for me to believe that so much time has elapsed and how little in at least some ways my life has changed.
Sometimes I feel sort of old in some ways. It was almost exactly three years before Ellen that something else quite significant had occurred in my life, but that incident and the meeting of Ellen seem so far separated in my memory-- like they might as well have been decades apart. Then that day three years ago to the present has flown. Who is to say what will change in the next three, and how they will fly? Only time will tell.
I love Kayla.
|Wednesday, February 14th, 2007|
Ah, the best Valentine's Day of my life!!!
Classes got canceled today because of like, a foot of snow-- I got a bunch of stuff from my friend Britni, it's nice to know that... people care about me. And since it made me feel in an extra-good mood, I decided to spread the love by giving my mom a card (to make up for my dad not getting her anything) and buying pizza for the family tonight.
It was a great Valentine's Day. The best ever. Heh-- here's hopin' they only get better from this point on.
I love Kayla.
|Tuesday, February 13th, 2007|
Aweeeeeeesome, campus will be closed tomorrow, so I get a day off. How w00ty. Heh. It's definitely t3h awesome-- that fact alone will make this Valentine's Day the best one that I've ever had. Hahahahahahaha.
I love Kayla. Current Mood: cheerful
|Wednesday, January 10th, 2007|
Several discoveries of the day:
1. Occasionally my friends can be big basts.... grrr!
2. Getting punched in the face by THAD= swollen lip for me.
3. Sebastian is the Father of Parkour.
4. I am the Father of Wavedashing.
5. Ken is truly the Father of Smash Brothers!
6. Spilling Mountain Dew on a table and watching cups slide along in it is apparently an amusing and exciting game. (Also I got to clean up the mess, YEAH!)
I love Kayla.
|Saturday, December 30th, 2006|
Rocky Balboa was a pwnsome movie! Sooooo incredible, one of the best movies of the year!!! Possibly my favorite I've seen the whole year? I can't say for sure.
Hmm.... Lord of the Rings marathon tonight, starting at 8. We probably won't be done til about 10 tomorrow. I'm gonna go to church at 4:30 tonight, cuz I won't be able to go tomorrow morning. I am PUMPED, it'll be an awesome night, that is for sure. And tomorrow is New Year's Eve. Is it possible my first full year outta high school is already coming to an end?!?! Wow.
I love Kayla. Current Mood: chipper
|Tuesday, December 19th, 2006|
Well, today is truly a grand day. I have finished my finals, and I am quite positive I did excellent on all of them. Now I am off until January 16th, w00t!!! Life is good. Not to mention-- I am gonna go be gettin' PIZZA in three hours. <3 <3 <3 pizza. Nothing can EVER be better. Not even THAD.
I love Kayla. Current Mood: accomplished
|Monday, December 11th, 2006|
Darn it. Being RNG-cursed in Fire Emblem is one of the worst things in the world.... blah!
I love Kayla.
|Tuesday, November 28th, 2006|
Love. It's something that's been on my mind a lot lately. Isn't it--- in a way, the universal equalizer? It's what all humans really want.... just to be loved. Who can deny that it makes them have a warm feeling on the inside when they realize how much someone really cares about them? If you think back to the old days-- as a small child, it's an easily recaptured feeling. When you were sick and felt miserable, and your mom would sit by your bedside and read you stories or bring you food or whatever-- it would make you feel... special; happy on the inside, this feeling of warmth there.
Why is it that love is such a hard thing to come by in our world? Why is it that so many people seem to forsake it, and forget what it means, and how to love? This is by no means supposed to be critical of Hannah Burdette, for she is a good friend of mine, but I shall use her as an example. The other night, while we were out to eat, the things she would talk about-- she's always had a bit of a temper, I'll say-- gets mad pretty easily at people.... she shows such... impatience and lack of understanding. Love is those things. Love is patient. Love is understanding. Love is something we should show to everyone.
Think on it for a moment. What does it mean to love someone that is easy to love? Someone you like a lot-- whether it be a friend, significant other, or a close relative? There is not much merit in it, if it comes easily to you. When it really means something is when you learn to love all those you encounter, even those you do not particularly care for. I just read a book over the weekend, a very moving true story by Mitch Albom called "Tuesdays with Morrie". In one particular passage, Morrie tells Mitch about how when he drove and there was someone impatient, rushing to get ahead of him-- he'd raise his hand as if to give them a certain rude gesture-- but then instead of giving the finger, he smiled and waved to them, for them go go on ahead. He said that oftentimes, they'd smile back at him. If you learn to treat people with love and respect, like in this case, then oftentimes they will show it back to you. I think society becomes calloused-- we as people are in a traffic jam, getting irritated and wanting to get to work or wherever we need to be-- and so we start cutting ahead of people and whatnot, and they return our rudeness with rudeness. We forget that they, too, are human beings with feelings and emotions. However, if you return such an act with kindness, and show love to the person, you may very well make their day, as well as remind them-- "There is more to this life than some little rat race, a fast track to success. There's... humanity. Each and every person I meet has their own feelings and valuess, and most of them are more like me than I'd probably even admit to myself." You can make a person think. Perhaps they'll think twice the next time about doing something rude-- and then maybe when someone offends them, they will do the same as you did-- respond in kindness. It can create an amazing chain.
Even the worst of people need to be loved-- look at a man like Saddam Hussein. Think of how unloved he is. It is certainly understandable, considering the sort of things he did. However, just like any other mortal living on this earth-- he is only human. In the Bible it says, "Take the plank out of your eye before the splinter out your neighbor's." In the eyes of God, all sins are equally offensive to him, since they're all wrong. While in our relative terms, you can stealing a candy bar is much less of a deal than killing hundreds of innocents, isn't it true that all such things are equally wrong? It's preposterous to say, "Hey, uh, yeah, what I did was LESS wrong, so that makes it right." No human being is entirely without good in them-- and oftentimes those that are people like Hussein are those that were not loved as they should have been. Now, when he is so hated, what if someone came forth to him and told him they loved him wholeheartedly, and were praying for him and whatnot, and were honestly sincere about it? Sure, he might scorn it--he very well might, but then again, he could be greatly moved by it, as well. For that is what everyone wants-- to be loved. It's an undeniable part of the human essence. Those that live lives full of love are the happiest... they know where their true happiness can be found, and give freely that happiness to others. We must learn to do this more often. Love everyone, from your best friend to your girlfriend/boyfriend to your family to your neighbor to your worst enemy.
I've talked a lot about love-- but what it is, really? It's giving yourself to someone. That's what love ultimately is about, because how else can you prove your love for another? Love is all things self-sacrificial. Being understanding, patient, giving in when you'd rather keep arguing, being willing to freely give things you treasure for that person, and just making... sacrifices in general. If you truly, truly, love someone, you will give up anything for them. What if it was your senior prom night, and a friend of yours suffered a terrible injury that night, and was in the hospital, and called for you, wanting you to come see them? If you really loved them-- then perhaps you would sacrifice getting to go that final dance, to go be with your friend, who might be all alone that night, while the rest of their 'friends' went to the dance, saying they'll come see said person in the hospital in a few days? This is certainly an example of being willing to sacrifice something you want for someone you really care about. And as I have already said, we should learn to care about everyone, no matter how much we may not like a person for who they are.
Romantic love. My thoughts on this are pretty much the same as my other thoughts on love in general. Why is that relationships these days are so much about the physical aspects of it? What does that prove--- nothing. Why? Because you're getting physical gratification out of it. Pleasure. Love isn't about pleasure. Sure-- you'll get a great feeling in your heart, of warmth, when you do something out of love and caring for a person. But it usaually doesn't come without some sacrifice on your part. Can it be denied that most relationships are soley for the person's own benefit? They like the feeling of being with that other person, some consider it to be... intoxicating, almost. The physical aspects are what they love-- hugging, kissing, holding hands, whatever. Why don't relationships usually last long? They begin to get bored with that person. That excitement isn't there anymore. Time to find someone new, who excites me like you used to. Buh bye. How is that love? If you truly love, you will not leave someone on such a basis. In a relationship, how often does one really consider the other person-- are they really thinking-- "Hey, I hope she/he is having a great day in school/work/whatever today, and that whatever they do is enjoyable and whatever." No, isn't is usually-- "I want to see them again. I haven't talked to him/her since last night." All about I, isn't it? It's what people want. Want isn't love-- it's the opposite of love. Love sacrifices; want takes.
Even the words "I love you." mean close to naught these days. How often do people really mean it? They've always said that actions speak louder than words, and it is undoubtedly true. Hah. When a couple dates for 2 weeks and say "I love you." to each other every five minutes, and then breaks up-- where is that love at? I certainly don't see it. They clearly weren't willing to sacrifice for each other; there was no love in that relationship. Why do people say it when they don't mean it? I believe most people mean it-- in the sense that when they say, "I love you." what they really mean is that-- "I like being around you, you make me feel happy."
The world could be such a better place if we all would just.... sit wown, and learn to start loving one another the way that we should. I know that I'll try my best.
After all this has been said and done, there are only a few words that I can end with, and I hope that they are true-- that within my heart, these words that I speak and that I fully mean are indeed fact, and it's not me making false claims, as so many do.
I love Kayla.
And thus I bring this thesis to a close. Current Mood: thoughtful
|Saturday, November 18th, 2006|
I feel like I'm in love. Not something I'd say too lightly, either, methinks. Hmmm.... Current Mood: contemplative
|Tuesday, November 14th, 2006|
|Long Time, No See
My first post in going on a year. Hah. Perfect time to say my favorite quote to my livejournal: "Been a long time, comrade."
Really, the only reason I'm making a post is because of the importance of this day to me. One year ago today, Harold Zook passed away at the age of 19. That day has since stuck in my mind as one of the worst days of my life... he may not have been someone I was very close to during school, but I knew him for 13 years in school together. It was such a shock for him to just be gone... he was always so full of.... youth and vitality. Certainly one of the most energetic young men I've had the pleasure of meeting during my life. Ah, how I recall those old days, in gym class... when his team would lose at volleyball, or hockey, tomato ball, whatever we may have been playing that day--how red his face would get, and how he couldn't stand losing. He would get so incredibly angry about losing-- I think not so much angry at others, as angry at himself. He was incredibly competitive.... trying to push himself harder to make his team win, even if it was just a game in gym class. Even now, one year later, I still can't believe that he's gone. I even had a dream about him about a week ago... in the dream, I saw him at a party, and rather than him having ever been dead, he'd just gone away for a long time, and was back. I said to him, "Hey Harry, everyone missed you a lot while you were gone, it's good to have you back." It was sad to awaken from.
So on this day, those of you that still read this, and knew Harry (even if you didn't) remember to say a prayer for him, and keep him alive always in your memories.
REST IN PEACE
Harold Zook- JR
June 4th, 1986- November 14th, 2005 Current Mood: sad
|Sunday, January 29th, 2006|
Hey everyone, I just wanted to say... life is gay! I can update livejournal, but am not able to read it, nor am I able to read others, or anything of that nature... it's screwed up, and I don't know why. I'll give a real update in a day or two, maybe...
|Sunday, January 22nd, 2006|
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Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Stability results were high which suggests you are very relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic..
Orderliness results were low which suggests you are overly flexible, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense too often of reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment.
Extraversion results were very high which suggests you are overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense too often of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity.
messy, disorganized, social, tough, outgoing, rarely worries, self revealing, open, risk taker, likes the unknown, likes large parties, makes friends easily, likes to stand out, likes to make fun of people, reckless, optimistic, positive, strong, does not like to be alone, ambivalent about chaos, abstract, impractical, not good at saving money, fearless, trusting, thrill seeker, not rule conscious, enjoys leadership, strange, loves food, abstract, rarely irritated, anti-authority, attracted to the counter culture
Yep, I definitely think that mostly sounds like me.